Day #04.

Ms. M, the woman being paid to listen to my rants, has thrown a challenge my way. This week, I must close my eyes and imagine one of my favorite places in black and white with no sound. And if I accomplish this, I must slowly add color, sound, smell, and anything else I can fully remember from that place.

I have an imagination, but this task is very difficult for me. When the trees start to form around me, and the leaves begin to blow into the river below the hill, thoughts start to cloud my mind. And then, thoughts of more thoughts stack on top of more thoughts and my head begins to throb.

Perhaps there's an easier way. Maybe another place would be easier to imagine. I'll let you know how that goes...

On top of the horrible work week, this weekend was wonderful. The amazing man in my life came to visit from up North, and threw my lonliness right out of the window. After holding alot inside, him and I had a good talk the other night, and he understands what I'm going through with my past. So after a visit to the Lawton bookstore, he got me this book.

This book is helping so much, and I'm only on page 39.

After the Divorce, I was extremely happy that it was finally over. But the struggles are coming from the emotional trauma I've faced since 2007. And now horrible nightmares haunt me at night. The book makes me feel like I'm not alone, and that it could have been much worse. Time heals all wounds.

Through my boyfriend and I's distant relationship, there have been struggles with technology. An android phone is great and all, but after he purchased the iPhone for me, talking and texting is clearer, faster, and easier overall. The irritability is already subsiding within me, and I find myself taking more photos out of nowhere. :)

Besides work, life is good.

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