Love & Some Drugs caused this, and it couldn't just have been the effect of the movie on me. I don't know what all it was. Maybe there's just alot of love within that I don't express enough to the person in my life, because I'm scared to admit that I'm loving again. Because deep inside, I feel that if I admit that I'm loving again, everything will come crashing down like it did a few years ago, when my wall was down.
I've been focusing all of my attention on fixing what a horrible person did to me in the past, and I don't take enough time to see what's right in front of my face.
I love to love, and I hate to hate.
So let the pain seep in, let the tears come out, and don't ever let the love end.
198 days remaining.
2 comments:
There are some people I can't love. Everytime I let myself love them all I recieve is a sucker punch to the heart, so I understand a bit of what you feel.
Don't let it take you 45 years to learn to trust. All relationships will end until one doesn't (wisdom from one of my favorite humans- Dan Savage). And just because some relationships end doesn't mean they are failures (though I'm not referring to the one you refer to in in this post).
Not for anything, you and I didn't grow up with direct knowledge of what good, right love feels like. You and I both grew up in an atmosphere of nearly being guilted into loving people who were not always worthy of love...
I wish you love...
Trust can so easily be lost, and seems to be so difficult to rebuild. Time heals all wounds. ^_^ Thanks for your comment, they always help.
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